Friday, August 31, 2012


"...In 2001, a small California biotech company called Epicyte patented a product, patented a gene, which causes both men and women who eat it in the form of any product, to produce antibodies to sperm. If the men eat the epicyte gene, the produce antibodies to their own sperm, rendering them irreversibly sterile. If women eat the epicyte gene, their bodies produce antibodies to the sperm that has been deposited, and they become infertile through the destruction of the sperm. Now Dupont and Monsanto formed a joint venture and purchased the Epicyte firm, and "commercialized the epicyte gene."

Do you want to know if the food that you're eating contains the epicyte gene? Sure you do! How about the food that your children are eating? Or your grandchildren? Sure you do! But the FDA -- the Fraud and Death Administration -- has made sure that under current laws, it is illegal for you to have that information..."

WAR ON HEALTH - The FDA's Cult of Tyranny

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

FROM TRAUMA TO ECSTASY - One Woman's Story of Healing from Birth Trauma

By Jeanice Barcelo, M.A.

“What if the word victim could be redefined into something closer to hero… recognizing that the path some have tread will spare others from the same?”
Mike Dooley, Notes from the Universe

Artwork by Arthur Airin

On May 12, 1998, I experienced the most profound spiritual initiation of my life. It was on that fateful day, after a very long, 53-hour, home birth labor, that my daughter, Anastasia, was born still. As she emerged from my womb, her eyes remained closed, her umbilical cord was not pulsing, and she was not breathing. I remember asking my husband, Brian, to hand me my baby so I could try to bring her back to life. But as soon as I reached out for my daughter, I immediately fell back into the birthing pool. I was blacking out due to exhaustion and extreme loss of blood. In technical terms, I was hemorrhaging to death, and it took everything I had to try to stay conscious during this horrible scene.

Paramedics were immediately called and my baby was rushed to a neonatal intensive care unit in Miami and placed on “life-support” machines in an effort to keep her “alive.” Despite being on their machines for two months and two days, she never opened her eyes.

While Anastasia was being whisked to the NICU, I was being rushed to a hospital in Key West where I recall receiving harsh and insensitive treatment while in the emergency room. The medics on duty appeared to be in a state of panic because I was losing a lot of blood and had not yet given birth to the placenta. So they proceeded to push, press and pound on my womb with such force and intensity, it was as if they had no awareness there was a human being attached to the body part they were pounding on. The horror of the entire experience was more painful and surreal than anything I had ever encountered in my life.

I was forced to spend an entire week in that hospital, separated from my baby, barely able to walk, doing whatever I could to recover from my near-death experience and the tragedy of giving birth to a dead child. My husband brought me pictures of our baby, but she had tubes attached to her body and tape stuck all over her face. I could not even make out what she really looked like. Was that my child? Could this possibly be happening? I don’t even recognize my own baby!!! What is wrong with me? All I feel is numb. All I want is to be dead.

I recall, while in the emergency room, they put me under anesthesia. And when the anesthesia wore off, I had an experience of plunging – hard – back into my physical body. I think, for at least a few moments, I must have really been dead because I distinctly recall wanting to stay dead. I was fighting with some type of spiritual forces, yelling “I don’t want to go back! I don’t want to go back!” But the outside forces seemed to have the upper hand in this situation and “they” insisted that I had to come back. I was told that my life was not over and that there was more work that needed to be done. And so back I came, slamming hard into my physical vessel, wondering why the hell I had ever been born and what on Earth I was thinking when I signed up for this ride.

Every ounce of my physical body felt pain, and my soul was suffering through the deepest experience of grief known to humankind. I remember lying in a hospital bed, hurting more than I ever dreamed possible, when an angel appeared in the form of a human female nurse. She nurtured me and touched me with so much tenderness and love, that it made me sob quite hysterically in grief for a lifetime of having no conscious connection to nurturing love.

My life up to that point had been a series of tragedies and traumas, many of which had inter-generational roots and were repeats of earlier childhood wounds. One of my earliest wounds occurred during my own conception which took place at a drive-in movie theater in the back seat of a car. My parents were teenagers at that time and decided to “have sex” for whatever reason teenagers do that. Neither of my parents consciously wanted to bring forth a child, so I ended up spending the first nine months of my life living in a womb where I was NOT wanted. My earliest memories are of feeling unloved and unlovable, and these primal, powerful imprints made their way into my physiology and caused decades of emotional and psychic pain as well as difficulty creating healthy relationships.

This sad beginning was followed by a horrific birth experience that took place in a violent technological setting (a/k/a the hospital) where all energies seemed to be antagonistic to my well-being and where it was psychically confirmed that I did not deserve even the slightest amount of tenderness, support, or love from those who were responsible for my well-being. I had absolutely no help during my own birth as my mother was anesthetized and completely unconscious, and my father was kept out of the birthing space by usurping doctors who felt that their presence was more important than his. At no time during my gestation or birth were either one of my parents able to support me or extend to me the love and nurturing that I needed, and at all times I felt that I had to overcome unbelievable odds just to stay alive.

From these troubled beginnings comes my life experience in which I’ve had a very difficult time thriving. I’ve spent decades dealing with unresolved emotional pain that led to a series of abusive relationships, living in extreme poverty, a 15-year addiction to prescription pills and illegal drugs, as well as severe eating disorders. As if all of that were not punishment enough (I always felt guilty for being born and was convinced I had ruined my mother’s life because of it), I also have a 30-year history of miscarriages and other tragic endings in childbirth – and although I live in a culture that tries to sweep such severe losses under the rug, each of the losses effected me deeply and created spiritual and psychic wounding that intensified over time.

By the time I reached the age of 35, I had already experienced all of the above problems as well as three pregnancy losses (one of them extremely severe) and an extremely dark journey through the labyrinth of technological “infertility treatments.” Even though I was never really infertile, I endured these hideous “treatments” because my first husband was diagnosed with a low sperm count that made it difficult for us to conceive. During the 16 years that we were together, I successfully conceived three times, two of which pregnancies ended in miscarriage, and a third which ended in a late-stage abortion of our severely deformed child. Our child was conceived through a combination of artificial insemination and the ingestion of neuro-toxic pharmaceutical drugs, both of which combined to create a surreal technological nightmare that ended horribly for me, my baby, and my marriage. The artificial insemination procedures were painful and humiliating, and the “fertility” drugs made me feel sick and break out in skin rashes. Years later I would discover that the fertility drugs I consumed were at the root of my baby’s deformities and were causing untold suffering for millions of families who also were having deformed children.

If I had understood then what I understand now, I would never have tried to conceive a baby in that way. Unfortunately, I had no way of knowing how ominous my birth experiences were about to become or just how dark technologically-managed pregnancy and birth really are. I endured extreme amounts of suffering and psychic wounding solely because I had handed my body and my procreative power over to the medical “profession.” And this I did because I had been conditioned to believe that “they” were more qualified than me to handle my pregnancies and births, and because my programming was like a hypnotic spell that lasted for decades and caused me to view the technological demi-gods as all-powerful and almighty.

It is important to note also that my Catholic upbringing strongly influenced the choices I made and caused me to expect that childbirth would be a horrendously unpleasant experience. I was raised to believe that this is how God wanted it and I was silly enough to pray to that mean-spirited God to help me get pregnant. On the surface, I was hoping that God would deliver a healthy child. But deep down, I didn’t trust that God at all, and I was intuitively afraid that he would hatefully take my baby from me as punishment for some previous indiscretion (content unknown) that I may have committed earlier in my life. I was in fear almost the entire five months of my pregnancy, worrying that something terrible would go wrong.

Sure enough, sometime during the 5th month of my pregnancy, I underwent a third of fourth sonogram – and this time the results were not good. I recall sitting in a sterile, industrial-type, antiseptic-smelling, medical room, listening to one of the doctors telling me that my baby was severely deformed and probably would not be able to survive outside of the womb. In looking at the sonogram, I could see that my baby had no skin on its stomach and that its organs were floating around in the sac. I could also see that my baby’s spine was twisted in an “S” shape – a condition the doctors called “spina bifida.”

My world was turned upside down. I felt as if I would collapse to the ground. My greatest fear had been made manifest and I was left with the terrible decision of whether to abort my baby at this mature stage of pregnancy, or carry the baby to term, knowing that it would surely die once it came out of my womb. I chose to abort my child.

Adding to my horror was the fact that my pregnancy had already advanced to the second trimester, and therefore, I could not undergo a “simple” abortion. Instead, I had to literally give birth to my child and experience the traumatizing underworld procedures of technological induction, drug-drenched labor, and unconscious birth. I recall the absolute gall and insensitivity of the medical staff as they placed me in a maternity ward where I was surrounded by other women who were – purportedly – joyfully giving birth. Knowing that my baby was to be aborted and born dead was difficult enough, but being surrounded by other women who were successfully giving birth to their babies made it much, much harder. I was in such a state of shock and drug-induced fog when my son emerged from my womb, I barely remember looking at his dead form and wondering what “they” (i.e., those unconscious, insensitive assholes) would do with his body.

Years later I would discover that aborted human babies are being used for a variety of sordid scientific endeavors, and we can now find aborted human fetal tissue turned into a vaccine ingredient, or being used for “flavor-enhancing” research (google Senomyx and HEK 293), or even being turned into stamina boosting pills!!! I cannot begin to describe the psychic turmoil that I feel knowing that my baby’s body could have been used for any of these diabolical things, and also realizing how much suffering my baby endured because I chose to abort him. Late-stage abortions are particularly hideous because the baby is literally burned to death from the inside-out. The abortionist injects a strong saline solution directly into the amniotic sac and the baby swallows and breathes in the solution and his/her lungs are burned. His/her outer layer of skin is also burned and stripped away, and the babies can struggle and convulse for up to 12 hours before their heart stops beating and they succumb to death.

Again, if I had known then what I know now, I would NEVER have chosen to abort my baby. I would have allowed him to be born instead and to die gently and in the arms of love. How sad that the technocratic gods do not tell women the truth about what is really going to happen to their babies during an abortion. How sad that I was raised in a culture where abortion is considered “normal.”

This whole spiritually annihilating experience took place in a hospital in Mineola, New York – which happens to be the very same hospital in which I was born. This “coincidence,” I would later understand, was not a coincidence at all, but a brilliant attempt on my part to re-enact portions of my own traumatic birth so that memories could rise to the surface for resolution. “Traumatic repetition” is the term used to describe the human tendency to recreate patterns of trauma over and over again. We do this not because we are masochistic, but because we are earnestly seeking resolution — the means to create a happy ending and return to the system to love. Unfortunately, this particular re-enactment did not bring resolution, but instead, further compounded the trauma.

It is important to note also that, like me, my husband also had a great deal of unresolved prenatal and birth trauma – some of which played itself out during this particular birth experience. My husband was given-up for adoption as an infant, and it is likely that his mother contemplated abortion while he was in her womb – just as I was contemplating abortion while his child was in my womb (something he had a tremendous amount of difficulty with). His low sperm count was, no doubt, his body’s way of expressing his ambivalence toward pregnancy and childbirth – all stemming from the unconscious residue of his unresolved prenatal, birth and adoption trauma. Had he been given an opportunity to consciously heal his early life experiences, his low sperm count would probably have resolved itself and he might have avoided having to endure this recapitulation episode.

Unfortunately, we had no access to prenatal and birth trauma therapists at that time, nor any language to understand what was happening to us – and why. Lacking the support we needed to make sense of our experiences and heal them, our marriage began to break down and, within a few short years, we went our separate ways. (Footnote 1 – see footnotes at bottom of article).

By the time I met my second husband, Brian, I was carrying so much unresolved birth trauma, there was little hope I could ever give birth to a child with ease. Sadly, I had no way of understanding the dangers that were lurking in my unresolved baggage, and so, within the first month of meeting Brian, I rapidly became pregnant again. During this pregnancy (my fourth), I was able to maintain a sense of joy for approximately 14 weeks, at which point the walls came crashing down upon discovering that my baby had died in my womb. I recall going to see a Long Island midwife (whose name I won’t mention but who I would strongly recommend people avoid) for a regular prenatal check-up, only to be told, quite matter-of-factly, that my baby was dead. This woman was so rough in her handling of my body, and so callous in the way that she communicated to me that I was carrying a dead child, that I could scarcely believe other women would allow her to attend their births.

Despite all of the grief I was experiencing, and unaware that my unresolved grief and trauma were setting the stage for extreme danger during future pregnancies and births, I plowed on and conceived yet another child within that same year.

Amazingly, my fifth pregnancy really took root and I carried Anastasia to term. I avoided technocratic doctors like the plague, and instead, sought help from local midwives and nutritional experts. I ate well (vegetarian and organic), exercised regularly, got plenty of rest, and consulted dozens of books and movies about gentle and natural birth. I educated myself to the umpteenth degree in an effort to ready myself for natural birth.

Still oblivious to the hazards of unresolved birth trauma, and having not yet made the connection between my own traumatic hospital birth and the experiences I was currently having, I was, nevertheless, mysteriously drawn to literature that revealed the dangers of technologically-managed childbirth. At last, I was beginning to understand that hospitals were an incredibly harsh and violent place to give birth, and although my focus was on finding the most gentle way to bring my baby into this world, I had a strong personal aversion to giving birth in a hospital – even if I still didn’t fully understand why. My husband felt exactly the same way I did and we, therefore, made the conscious decision to birth to our baby at home.

We had tried, several times throughout my pregnancy, to locate the perfect midwife to support us through the birth. None of the Long Island midwives impressed me, and by the time I got to Florida, most of the Florida midwives were unwilling to take me on as a client due to the lateness of my pregnancy and my past history with miscarriage and loss. The one midwife who was willing to support us (she was the main reason we moved to Florida) suddenly became unavailable as I got close to term because the State of Florida made it illegal for birth-center midwives to attend home births.

My husband and I had to go it alone, and part of me really believed that we could do it. On a conscious level, I kept telling myself that I was exceptionally well-prepared and that I had reached a level in my spiritual development where nothing could go wrong. I loved my husband, deeply, and believed our love would carry us through.

On a subconscious level, I was absolutely terrified. Despite all the emotional, psychological, and spiritual work I had done, I was extremely insecure about my ability to give birth. And at the deepest levels of my being, I feared what God’s intentions might be for me and my baby. (Footnote 2 – see bottom of article)

On Mother’s Day, May 10th, 1998, my labor began, and two days later on May 12th, at 1:14 pm, Anastasia was born dead. Although the masterminds of the technological underworld were able to keep her “alive” with their high-tech machines and protocols, she never opened her eyes and was never able to breathe on her own. She suffered for two months in the neonatal intensive care unit, daily subjected to the fear-based, sadistic rituals and tortures of the medical profession, and finally succumbed to her final death on July 14th, 1998. She died during a failed surgery attempt to slice a whole in her throat for the purpose of inserting a breathing tube – a process the technological gods call a “tracheotomy.” Several years later I would come to understand that this surgery was likely performed on my daughter WITHOUT ANESTHESIA — a common practice amongst medical “professionals” who insist that babies do not feel pain.

I watched the brutality of NICU protocols being thrust at my daughter day after day. Needles in her head, feet, arms — anywhere they could stick them — numerous times a day, day after day. Tape repeatedly torn-off from across her vulnerable and sensitive face and then replaced by more tape and more tape and more tape. Mechanical gadgets everywhere attached to her body, making it impossible for her to receive loving, nurturing, skin-to-skin human contact. Tubes forced through her nose and shoved down her throat, day after day after day, with no pain medication whatsoever but only paralyzing drugs to make the procedures less difficult for the doctors and nurses.

Anastasia felt every single thing they did to her. Paralysis meant she could not move. But she could FEEL everything those knife-wielding, needle-pricking, tube-shoving maniacs did to her. And her father and I had to watch it, over and over again. There were times when I was observing what they were doing to my daughter and flashbacks of my own traumatic hospital birth would flash across my mind. During these moments, I experienced such profound discomfort in my own body, that I literally wanted to rip off my skin. Not only was it difficult to recognize the severity of what I had been through, but to then watch them do the same evil things to my baby as they did to me — well that was enough to throw me over the psychological edge.

During one particular code-red experience (my baby was on the verge of death), I remember witnessing a hideous creature calling himself a doctor holding my baby in his hands and trying to puff up his own sense of self-importance by forcefully pushing on my daughters little body in order to demonstrate how HE could do the breathing for her. I wanted to tear my baby out of his arms and run out of that hospital, but I was afraid that she would die if I took her away from their machines. So I stood there, asking the doctor if it were really necessary for him to push on my daughter’s body so forcefully, appalled by his threatening response to have hospital security remove me if I tried to interfere or give him any more lip. It was excruciatingly painful to watch this man use my daughter’s body to pump up his own ego, and it was enraging to have my husband stand mutely by, allowing this beast of a man to abuse his baby and threaten his wife. This was the beginning of the end for me and my husband, and it was not until several years later – long after our marriage had come to an end – that I was finally able to forgive him.

This is still the incident that conjures up the most profound discomfort within me, probably because it is the incident that mirrored the deepest levels of my own birth trauma wounding:

- unconscious, abusive male energies roughly mishandling my body

- using my precious physical body to bolster their grandiose egos and their own sense of self-importance

- demonstrating a callous, heartless, disregard for the extreme sensitivity of my being

- subjecting me to sadistic rituals and procedures that were painful, violent, and extremely traumatizing

- having no powerfully loving male (or female) presence to protect or defend me

- being unable to protect myself or get away from the abuse

- being dependent on the abusers for my life

All of these components were present during my own hospital birth, and all of them played themselves out masterfully during this recapitulation episode with Anastasia. (Footnote 3 – at bottom)

There are numerous other parallels between the birth experiences I had as an infant and the childbirth experiences I had as an adult. In truth, there was an entire lineage of unresolved, traumatic prenatal and birth experiences that seemed to out-picture themselves through me as I must have been the elected representative to heal the entire family line! These similarities were begging to be recognized and addressed so that the recapitulation episodes could end, and although I started making the connections during Anastasia’s brief life, they didn’t come into full clarity until several years later, after I had moved to Maui and began working with Dr. Stephanie Mines ( (See Footnote 4 below)

For several years, I remained trapped in a vortex of trauma that had begun in early life but was greatly exacerbated by the shock of Anastasia’s birth/death. I was experiencing post-traumatic stress symptoms that were quite severe, as well as homelessness, extreme poverty, a series of abusive relationships, and endless despair and grief. Despite all of the lush and wondrous beauty that surrounded me in Hawaii, and all of the joy I was experiencing in reconnecting to the natural world, I still felt isolated and afraid most of the time, always wondering when “God” was going to drop the next bombshell. Although I had heard the new-age rhetoric about creating my own reality a million times before, I nevertheless had the sense that something bigger and much larger than my “self” was really running the show. I didn’t trust this energy at all and worried incessantly about what “it” was planning to subject me to next. (Footnote 7 at bottom)

I attracted three “romantic” relationships into my life during this excruciatingly painful period, but all of them were abusive and none of them provided the authentic love and tenderness I needed to heal. Because I was in an energetic field of trauma, I attracted/created three deeply wounded men who (from my perspective) had virtually no capacity to love and a heartless indifference to my suffering (my birth trauma was activating again!). Although physical violence was rarely an issue, psychic and emotional turmoil were the norm. (See Footnote 8 at bottom)

I finally met Dr. Stephanie Mines ( during my fourth year on Maui, at which time the real healing began. Stephanie was instrumental in helping me identify and work through some of my deepest birth trauma residue, providing me with insights into how my earliest experiences influenced my adult life. She also gave me a tool – a Japanese system of subtle energy medicine called Jin Shin – which was ultimately the key to my transformation. As soon as I started practicing Jin Shin (i.e., doing self-care on a daily basis), my life began to change quite rapidly. Within three months of daily self-care, I stopped smoking marijuana – for good. (This was after several years of abuse which began with Anastasia’s death). Within five months, my finances and housing began to improve. Soon, many other things began to shift as well, including the quieting of my post-traumatic stress symptoms and an ability to sleep once again! With Jin Shin, I found that when I was feeling highly agitated by something in my outer experience, I could simply take my fingertips and place them on my body in strategic places, and presto, I was able to calm myself down. This capacity to calm my nervous system was invaluable to me at the time (it still is) because I found myself activated ALOT and really needed a tool that would help me settle down. Jin Shin not only did that, but it completely transformed my electro-magnetic energy field, slowly taking me out of the vortex of trauma I was stuck in, and moving me into a life experience in which I felt much more nurtured and supported.

Jin Shin also enabled me to forgive many of those who I perceived had hurt me – not because I had made up my mind to forgive them, but because forgiveness was happening spontaneously as I moved through my healing process. This included forgiving my mother (who I recognized as having been severely traumatized herself) and my husband, Brian, for not protecting me or our daughter during that horrible scene in the Miami hospital. I came to understand that Brian was suffering from a habitual nervous system response known as “parasympathetic shock” whereby the body and personality immediately freeze when danger is present. The origins of this habitual nervous system response probably lie in Brian’s circumcision, as the levels of pain and torture that an infant is forced to endure during this sadistic, ritualistic, satanic-based “procedure,” force his system to shut down, go numb, and/or “check out” through temporary paralysis. Because the “play dead” response enabled him to stay alive as an infant, it became a life-long response to threat, causing Brian to go numb whenever he was confronted with danger.

So I finally understood that Brian could not stand up in defense of me or his baby because parasympathetic shock had kicked into gear in the presence of the abusive egomaniac calling himself a medical doctor. I had seen this “freezing” behavior in Brian many times before, but until I began studying the effects of birth trauma with Dr. Stephanie Mines, I had no context in which to understand it.

Interestingly, I also learned that Brian and I were opposites. While his nervous system habitually went into parasympathetic mode, my nervous system habitually moved into the “sympathetic” mode of “fighting” (which prompted me to want to bust the doctor in the head and take my baby and run!). These are dichotomous survival mechanisms that Brian and I had learned and utilized early in life (i.e., during life-threatening prenatal and birth experiences), which had become habituated over time and were a constant source of tension in our relationship. It was wonderful to finally make sense of Brian’s “wimpy” behavior and forgive him, and also to make sense of my own behavior (i.e., my tendency to short-circuit and want to attack people) and forgive myself.

Finally, Jin Shin enabled me to connect the dots, i.e., to see the parallels between my adult childbirth experiences and the lineage of prenatal and birth trauma that ran through my family line. These parallels were numerous and obvious once I knew where to look. I will endeavor to outline some of them here:

1. My maternal grandmother gave birth to a baby boy that was killed by the medical system. The doctors used forceps to pull my grandmother’s baby out, and they used too much force, thereby giving the baby a brain hemorrhage, which killed him. This incredible trauma was never thoroughly addressed and healed by my grandmother, and the memory of it was, therefore, passed on to my mother, who was the next baby to come through my grandmother’s womb. The trauma was then passed on to me as it still remained unaddressed and unresolved at the time I was conceived (I was the first through my mother’s womb). This dead baby scenario played itself out repeatedly during my life, even to the extent that one of my babies (Anastasia) also suffered brain trauma. (Footnote 9 at bottom)

2. Incredibly, my grandmother’s labor with the son that was killed by the medical profession lasted 3 days. My labor with Anastasia also lasted 3 days, at the end of which I was handed a dead baby – just like my grandmother.

3. My mother suffered from what is called “haunted womb shock” – a term used to describe the emotional and psychic impact on a child that comes through a womb where there is unresolved loss. My daughter also suffered haunted womb shock as she came through a womb permeated by a series of unresolved losses.

3. My grandmother’s births were completely usurped by the medical profession. My mothers and my first birth were also completely usurped by the technological gods.

4. My grandmother was severely traumatized by the iatrogenically caused death of her son, which trauma was not healed by the time my mother (her next child) was born. Because of this trauma, my grandmother’s maternal capacities were severely compromised and she was unable to experience the neurobiology of love at the birth of mother and did not even recognize my mother as her own child. Likewise, when Anastasia was born (and also when my son was born), I was in such a fear-ridden, grief-stricken state, that the neurobiology of love could not activate and it was difficult for me to recognize my own child.

5. During my third pregnancy which ended in abortion, doctors repeatedly exerted forceful pressure on my womb during sonograms and vaginal exams. This forceful and abusive manhandling of my body repeated itself while I was in the emergency room after Anastasia’s birth. How utterly sad that my poor baby suffered the same abusive fate, with at least one doctor forcefully and violently pushing and pressing on her little belly and chest, supposedly in an effort to make her breathe. It is likely that this type of scenario had played itself out before, in my grandmother’s and/or my mother’s births. At the very least, it is clear that unnecessary force was used on my grandmother’s baby boy.

6. My mother willingly handed over her birthing power to the medical profession, just as her mother did before her. Both women chose to experience medically-managed, drug-drenched labor and technological birth. Neither of them ever questioned medical procedures or techniques. I followed this family heritage during my first three pregnancies, willingly giving away my power to the technocratic gods. However, I caught myself by the time I reached my fourth pregnancy, at which point I started to break free of the spell. By the time Anastasia was born, I was fully ready to own my birthing power, but unfortunately, a lineage of unresolved prenatal and birth trauma prevented me from embodying it.

7. My grandmother gave birth to my mother in a hospital and my mother gave birth to me in a hospital. In both cases, mom and baby were immediately separated after birth (a common hospital practice which leads to terrified infants and grieving mothers) and were denied an opportunity to properly bond. This same trauma played itself out when Anastasia was born. She and I were immediately separated after her birth, and although I was conscious of not wanting this to happen to me and my baby (one of the main reasons I chose home birth), I nevertheless created/attracted this experience due to my unresolved trauma.

8. My grandmother did not/could not breastfeed her children (traumatic birth often interferes with breastfeeding success), and my mother never even tried. My sister never tried to breastfeed either, and although I was deeply desirous of breastfeeding Anastasia, I was never able to put her to my breast because she was attached to machines. I spent several months “bonding” with a breast-pump machine while my daughter spent several months “bonding” with the machines that kept her “alive.”

The above is just a partial list of the insights I gained during my years of birth trauma study. Over time, I gathered enough information to fully understand the impact of prenatal and birth trauma on the human species. This led me to complete a teacher training with Dr. Stephanie Mines so that I could help other birth trauma sufferers access the healing they need.

Because trauma disrupts the electro-magnetic circuitry of the human spirit/body/mind system, I believe subtle energy work (such as Jin Shin) is the most powerfully transformative for the resolution of early shock and trauma. (Footnote 10 at bottom)

There were/are several other things that I found to be very supportive during my healing journey. One of them was learning how to fire-dance. Fire-dancing is something I never would have considered doing while living in New York. However, once I moved to Maui, I found myself absolutely compelled to do it. Fire-dancing gave me a potent outlet to express and move some of the intense emotions I was experiencing. It also enabled me to reconnect and ground in my body and express feminine sensuality. This was an essential part of my journey to wholeness.

Tribal drumming is also a tool that I found incredibly healing and powerful. Drumming literally enabled me to alter my brain chemistry (something I sorely needed to do because of my damaged neuro-physiology) and reunite with my primal instincts and rhythms. Whenever I participated in drum circles (which I still do every week), (Footnote 11 at bottom) I found myself having unabashed moments of sheer joy and ecstasy – emotions which I found very beneficial while working toward the resolution of my trauma. (Footnote 12 at bottom)

Finally, the Anastasia books (, written by Vladimir Megre, were also instrumental in my healing and transformation. I discovered the books sometime during the year 2006 and was blown away by the profound wisdom contained therein, especially as regards conscious conception and conscious procreation. Although I had been studying human sexuality for several decades, and even taught about it in a university setting during the early 1990’s, I never before encountered the quality of information that was being presented to me through the Anastasia books. While reading them, I felt as if my daughter, Anastasia, was speaking to me directly, sharing with me what it means to conceive, gestate, birth and parent a child WITHOUT TRAUMA!!!! This, I believe, was the reason she incarnated – i.e., to help me heal and to prepare me to bring her into this dimension in a way that will enable her to maintain a full-on, conscious connection to source/love throughout her life. Even though I am 53 years old and peri-menopausal, I still believe I am going to have another child and that it will be Anastasia reincarnating in LOVE!

I now offer workshops and teacher trainings as well as private sessions for the healing of birth trauma: Birth of a New Earth Teacher Training and Mentor Program

I also offer a 12-week educational program designed especially for men: The Father's Role During the Childbearing Year

I am busy making television shows and being interviewed for dozens of radio shows regarding hospital birth trauma and its impact on our families, our species, our society, and our entire civilization: Birth of a New Earth Television Show #3 - Parts 1-6

Radio Show:
Red Ice Radio Interviews Jeanice Barcelo about the Real Agenda Behind the Protocols of Hospital Birth

I have created a curriculum that can support future parents in healing their past and preparing for conscious conception and gentle birth (my own unique way of bringing my trauma full-circle!): Birth of a New Earth Curriculum for Conscious Procreation

And I am committed to the creation of a school where parents can study-up on how to prepare themselves for conscious procreation and become the best parents ever: International School for Conscious Procreation

My long-term vision involves the creation of communities worldwide that are focused on conscious procreation and parenting: Conscious Birth Settlement, Educational Center, and Center on Maui

Conscious procreation and parenting are the keys to the fulfillment of human love. These things lay the foundation for our children to experience a life filled with love and to enter this dimension with a full awareness of their spiritual nature and capacities.

Our unborn babies are waiting at the gate, asking us to ready ourselves in body, mind and spirit, for their fully-conscious arrivals. For those who are prepared to take the leap, feel free to contact me through this website or by e-mailing (



With love and blessings to all who take the time to read this,

Footnote 1
It is the saddest reality, indeed, when human love cannot sustain itself. And the breakdown of love is directly related to the high levels of stress and trauma that many couples are enduring. These patterns of trauma begin in early life, with highly traumatized parents giving birth to highly traumatized children, who carry a blueprint for trauma that follows them throughout their life. Such was the case for Casey and me (and millions of others), and although we had both devised skillful compensatory mechanisms to get ourselves through life (like abusing alcohol and drugs), our love could not survive the onslaught of darkness that kept coming at us as we matured into adulthood.

Footnote 2
In pre- and perinatal psychology, there is an understanding that our perception of God is deeply connected to the way we were birthed. Just as our parents seem like God to us when we are small children, so too do those who handle us at birth play the role of God to the incoming soul. When our birth attendants handle us with forcefulness and/or indifference to our sensitivity and vulnerability, we develop a conception of God as uncaring and brutal. This, of course, is further complicated by religion portraying the Judeo-Christian God as angry, vengeful, spiteful and violent.

Because my birth was so traumatizing, and because I was treated with so little love and so much callous indifference when I entered this world, I had developed a strong sense that “God” (i.e., a power outside myself that seemed to have control over my experience) was incredibly harsh and mean-spirited. Thus, it was not surprising to me that God would bless me with pregnancies and then violently take them away. Nor that he would initiate my labor on Mother’s Day to trick me into thinking that I would be gifted with a Mother’s Day birth – only to be let down in the worst way imaginable by not giving birth until two days later, and having my baby be born dead. I had come to expect this type of treatment from God and thus had come to attract/create it over and over again.

Footnote 3
Some of them have played themselves out in other areas of my life as well, for example, as in manifesting relationships with abusive men wherein I was dependent on the men for my financial security and could not get away from the abuse because of my financial dependence.

Footnote 4
It is worth noting here that, for purposes of my own healing, it was extremely important for me to get myself out of the harsh and chaotic energy of New York (where I had returned two months after Anastasia’s death) and into an environment that felt gentle, supportive, and nurturing. Therefore, when I came to Maui in March of 2000 for what I thought was to be a two-week vacation, I spontaneously made the decision to stay rather than return to New York. I had recently come into a small chunk of money by participating in a gifting circle (which is a story unto itself – to be told at a later date), and that money gave me the courage to remain on Maui and allow my healing to occur in this feminine, nurturing place.

Many of the people who live on Maui refer to the island as “Mother Maui” and, indeed, the island is literally shaped like a woman. When you look at maps of the island you can clearly see the woman’s head, face, neck, breasts and torso.

Significantly, the island across from Maui (Kaho’olawe) is shaped like a fetus, and the body of water between the two islands is called “Alalakeiki,” which means “the weeping child.” (See Footnote 5 below). Legends say that the child is weeping because it has been separated from its mother. (See Footnote 6 below)

Naturally, when I learned of this legend, I felt a deep resonance with it and it confirmed for me that I was, indeed, in the right place to effectuate my healing.

Footnote 5
Original Hawaiian place-names (many of which have long been covered up and paved over by the American theft and occupation of Hawaiian land) often tell stories of sexuality, conception, and childbirth, as for example, Hakioawa (a northeastern coastal point on Kaho’olawe) which translates as “an easily broken, fragile, premature infant – believed to be caused by the sour condition of the mother.” In this case, the sour condition of the mother (the earth goddess, Papa/Haumea), seems to have been caused by the father (the sky father, Wakea) cheating on her, and her betraying herself by going to back to him and then conceiving and giving birth to his children (the islands of Maui and Kaho’olawe). The gestation and birth of these islands was not easy for Papa and the legends say she was sick while she gestated Maui and “in great travail” when she gave birth to Kaho’olawe. Papa ultimately cursed and deserted Kaho’olawe, which might explain the island’s harsh existence, including 50 years of bombing by the United States military (who decided to use the island for target practice).

Footnote 6
In one Hawaiian story, Maui and Kaho’olawe were once united as a single landmass, but after a battle between two Hawaiian goddesses (Pele and Haumea), the waters rose and they became two separate islands. In this battle, Pele (Hawaiian volcano goddess) was desirous of having a child and she asked Haumea (Hawaiian goddess of childbirth) for help and blessings. Haumea refused to help Pele, believing Pele to be too volatile to make a good mother. Enraged by Haumea’s refusal to bless her with a child, Pele caused earthquakes and volcanic eruptions and Haumea raised the waters to put out Pele’s fire.

Footnote 7
For more information about this version of “reality,” see Busting Loose from the Money Game, by Robert Scheinfeld.

Footnote 8
It should be noted here that prior to the birth/death of Anastasia, I had relationships with very loving men. Both of my husbands were kind, caring, beautiful souls. It was only after the traumatic episodes with Anastasia, that I began to attract/create abuse from men. It was as if my wiring had short-circuited and this caused me to magnetize/create abuse and mistake it for “love.”

Footnote 9
It is important for me to share here a new piece of information that has recently come through.

First, please read the following article, which activated a deep internal knowing within me about the insidious nature of inter-generational trauma (i.e., the process by which children will carry/inherit the unresolved patterns of their parents — unless, of course, their parents have become conscious of the patterns and worked toward resolving them) and how it is connected with traumatic repetition (i.e., unconscious, unresolved trauma will tend to be re-enacted and re-created by the next generation(s) as they attempt to bring the trauma to consciousness and resolve it).


Here’s the insight regarding how inter-generational trauma can play itself out:

My grandmother gave birth to a baby boy that was killed by medical “professionals.” They pulled the baby out with forceps using such force and intensity, they gave him a brain hemorrhage and he died.

It is my belief that my grandmother never really worked through her grief about this loss (blaming herself for having a baby that was “too big” rather than acknowledging the brutality of the doctors and the violence that she and her baby were subjected to during this birth.) Since my grandmother never resolved the loss, and my mother was the next baby through my grandmother’s haunted womb, my mom carried the memories of unresolved grief related to childbirth,which, as I have just discovered, played itself out when she gave birth to her own children. My mom’s “choice” not to breastfeed me (or my sister or brother), was her unconscious way of re-creating the neurobiology of mourning and grief that her mother had experienced in childbirth. Wow! This is so amazing.

My mother, following in the footsteps of her mother, never sought to process or resolve this childbirth grief, so it was passed on to me (as well as her other children).

I re-created the same neurobiology of mourning and grief in childbirth by having several miscarriages (and other tragedies in childbirth) and ultimately giving birth to a full-term, stillborn child.

My sister re-created the grief by “choosing” to have a fully medicalised birth, being induced and c-sectioned, etc. The administering of drugs like pitocin during childbirth — i.e., synthetic oxytocin — virtually guarantees that the neurobiology of love will not activate in a birthing mother since her brain will not produce the natural chemicals of love if/when their synthetic counterparts are introduced into the system. Instead, the neurobiology of grief will activate.

My sister never breastfed her daughter. My brother’s children were never breastfed either.

Wow! The lineage of trauma is amazing.

The good news is…… THE BUCK STOPS WITH ME!!!! I am now conscious of the original wounding which makes it possible for the lineage of trauma to end. From here on out, any children born through me will NOT be condemned to suffer the same wounding.

Blessed are the ones who are willing to heal their family lineage.

Please check out this quote from the article named above, which triggered so much integration for me.

How utterly amazing.

“….According to a new theory being proposed by University of Albany evolutionary psychologist Gordon Gallup and his colleagues, the decision to bottle-feed is tantamount, in the mother’s psyche, to mourning the loss of the child. At least, that’s how a woman’s body seems to respond to the absence of a suckling infant at its breasts in the wake of a successful childbirth. In a soon-to-be-published article in Medical Hypotheses, the authors argue that bottle-feeding simulates the unsettling ancestral condition of an infant’s death:

Opting not to breastfeed precludes and/or brings all of the processes involved in lactation to a halt. For most of human evolution the absence or early cessation of breastfeeding would have been occasioned by miscarriage, loss, or death of a child. We contend, therefore, that at the level of her basic biology a mother’s decision to bottle feed unknowingly simulates child loss…’

Footnote 10
I also found cranial sacral therapy very helpful and completed a training with Rebecca Goff, who practices and teaches aquacranial therapy – i.e., cranial sacral therapy in the ocean.

Additionally, I recommend the work of Elena Tonetti (, who has created a magnificent video entitled “Birth As We Know It” and offers workshops and lectures that are enormously beneficial for the repatterning of birth trauma.

Footnote 11
On Maui, we have a weekly drum circle at Little Beach every Sunday night, where dozens of drummers, dancers and fire-dancers gather (as well as hundreds of onlookers) to share their joy and passion. It is one of the most powerfully authentic tribal experiences one can have while spending time on Maui, and it is part of the reason I chose to stay on Maui rather than return to New York.

Footnote 12
Swimming in the ocean with dolphins and whales was also extremely beneficial for the reorganization of my brain chemistry, as these beings emit sound waves that alter the neurological impulses of humans. After I moved to Maui, I became an avid ocean swimmer and had many encounters with these incredible beings.

During the early stages of what they call “prenatal care,” I was informed that my pregnancy was “high-risk” and that I would therefore need to allow the underworld gods to subject me to a battery of tests, as well as prodding and probing, in order to ensure that everything was “OK.” This I did, without question, enduring numerous blood and urine tests, as well as repeated sonograms and invasive vaginal exams – all considered “normal” within the realms of technologically-managed birth. In looking back, I am appalled at what I allowed those entities to do to me, my baby, and my body. But in retrospect I can see how the experience prepared me to understand and teach everything that I am sharing today.

Monday, August 20, 2012


Baby Stacy Sirjacobs died after she received 9 vaccines in one day

"Every day we are told that vaccinations are the best defense against the killer diseases threatening our children. The governments, media and pharmaceutical industries dish out billions of dollars advertising the benefits of vaccination in an effort to convince us.

By the age of 18 months children in the USA will have received a staggering 38 vaccinations (1) these are:

Up to 4 doses of the Hepatitis B Vaccine
3 doses of the rotavirus vaccine
4 doses of the DTaP
4 doses of the Hib vaccine
4 doses of the pneumococcal vaccine
3 doses of the polio vaccine
up to 2 doses of the flu vaccine
2 doses of the hepatitis A vaccine
1 MMR shot
1 chickenpox shot

With all these vaccinations being injected into their tiny bodies you would think that children would be safer now than ever but you would be in for a shock. Reports in the media suggest that far from being the safe and effective weapons against disease that we have been led to believe they are, vaccines are not only are proving to be inefficient at protecting children against killer diseases but they have in fact been shown to be responsible for killing our kids on mass.

Child deaths reported as a result of vaccinations this year

On August 9, 2012, the Financial Express (2) reported that three babies had died after receiving the Hepatitis B vaccination in Hospet (Kar) Mumbai.

The Financial Express stated that a NGO (Non Government Organization) vaccinated a total of 24 babies between the ages of 18 months and 2 years with the vaccine and 15 of them developed complications. Of these 15, three had died and several more were still undergoing treatment.

I would like to add that the report seemed to place a strong emphasis on the fact that these children were vaccinated by a Non Government Organization, which I feel Is yet another ploy to enable the authorities to pass the buck at a later stage.

Gardasil Vaccine

Sadly these were not the only deaths connected to vaccines to be hitting our headlines recently. On August 8, 2012, the NZ (New Zealand) Herald reported that a mother in New Zealand believed the Gardasil vaccine, the vaccination against cervical cancer, was responsible for the death of her teenage daughter.

Ms Renata told reporters that she had found her daughter Jasmine dead in bed six months after she had received her third dose of the vaccination. She added that the year her daughter had received the vaccinations, she had never complained so much about her mental or physical state.

Sadly, this was not the only report I have found linking the Gardasil vaccination to the death of a child this year. In February, Linda Morin reported that she was suing Merck, the manufacturers of Gardasil, along with three doctors, pediatrician Guylaine Larose, neurologist Amelie Nadeau and her family doctor, Lynne Nadeau for the sum of $197,000. Ms. Morin stated that she had found her 14 year-old daughter Annabelle dead in the bathtub after she had received her second Gardasil vaccination.

According to LifeSiteNews (4) Linda Morin Annabelle’s mother had told reporters that she had been left in shock after discovering her daughter’s body. She said:

“I was shocked. I didn’t know what to do. This image will stay in my head for the rest of my life. It’s a nightmare. We often say that time heals things (but) time hasn’t healed anything yet.”

Not a very pleasant experience, I am sure you will agree, but sadly Annabelle was just one of a long line of children found dead after receiving their Gardasil vaccinations since the vaccination was recommended.

Moving on to deaths reported after the flu vaccine

On August 3, 2012, the Australian News (5) issued a report stating that a total of ten deaths had been linked to anti-flu vaccinations since 2008. (Although to be fair, the report did say that these deaths included unborn babies and elderly persons.)

The news report stated that there had been 2136 reports of adverse events following injection with CSL’s Fluvax and Fluvax Junior, the vaccine that replaced Panvax in 2010:

‘Fluvax is used for about half the nation’s estimated 6 million flu vaccinations each year. But the number of reported side-effects for Fluvax is five times higher than the other three most popular brands of flu vaccines together.’

This was not the only report indicating deaths after the flu vaccine this year. I reported that a previously healthy seven year-old had died in her mother’s arms in Vermont in January. (6)

Moving on to India

In July 2012 The Times of India (7) reported that two children had died after receiving the pentavalent vaccination (5 vaccines in 1). The Times of India reported that baby Tanujashree was just three months old when she was vaccinated with the 5 in 1 vaccination. She died within a few hours of being administered the vaccine. Reporters went on to say that Tanujasshree was the second child to have died after the vaccine, stating that in January the vaccine had also been responsible for the death of another three month-old baby who died in Kancheepuram within 24 hours of being given the vaccination.

These were not the only children to have died after the pentavalent vaccine this year.

In March 2012 the Refusers (8) reported that a total of four children had died after they had received the 5 in 1 vaccine in Kerala, India.

According to the report, experts argued that if the reaction occurred after the injection and there was no other cause for the reaction it must probably be due to the vaccine. This may be true but I bet another cause will be found very quickly. My guess is that the authorities will blame one of the following:

Poor storage facilities
Expired vaccinations
A previously undiagnosed illness or virus that the child already had
The person giving the vaccination was unqualified or inexperienced
The vaccination was given by a NGO

My Final Vaccine Horror Story

My final vaccine horror story of the year is the death of baby Stacy who died after she received a whopping nine vaccines in one day at the tender age of eight weeks old (9). Stacy was a premature baby and left behind her twin sister Lesly. Her father said:

‘We are summoning every citizen of every country to take to the streets in their own cities, towns and villages: things must now change!’

He is absolutely right — things must change. How many deaths of innocent children will it take for parents to begin to educate themselves about the dangers of vaccinations? I realize that not every child will die after a vaccination, but let’s face it — our children are fast becoming the unhealthiest children the world has ever seen. The way I see it, it is a far cry from the wonderful picture that our governments and pharmaceutical industries paint, isn’t it? Please, parents — educate yourselves fully about the dangers of vaccinations before you have your child vaccinated. Remember that an educated choice is a good choice.


Neil Z Miller Overdosed Babies Are Multiple Vaccinations Safe

Financial Express.NGO’s administers Hepatitis B vaccine, kills three children

New Zealand Herald Mother blames cancer vaccine for teen’s death

Thaddeus Baklinski LifeSiteNews Parents sue after Quebec teen dies following Gardasil vaccination

The Australian News 10 Deaths linked to the anti flu vaccine

Christina England VacTruth Healthy 7 Year Old Dies in Mother’s Arms After Flu Shot

The Times of India Two infant deaths after vaccination in Tamil Nadu

The Refusers Four children die in Kerala after administration of pentavalent vaccine – Pharmabiz

Christina England Vactruth Baby Dies After 9 Vaccines in One Day"
Source Article:
Fact: Vaccinations are Killing Our Kids

Sunday, August 19, 2012


"Vaginal birth triggers the expression of a protein in the brains of newborns that improves brain development and function in adulthood, according to a new study by Yale School of Medicine researchers, who also found that this protein expression is impaired in the brains of offspring delivered by caesarean section (C-sections).

These findings are published in the August issue of PLoS ONE by a team of researchers led by Tamas Horvath, the Jean and David W. Wallace Professor of Biomedical Research and chair of the Department of Comparative Medicine at Yale School of Medicine.

The team studied the effect of natural and surgical deliveries on mitochondrial uncoupling protein 2 (UCP2) in mice. UCP2 is important for the proper development of hippocampal neurons and circuits. This area of the brain is responsible for short- and long-term memory. UCP2 is involved in cellular metabolism of fat, which is a key component of breast milk, suggesting that induction of UCP2 by natural birth may aid the transition to breast feeding.

The researchers found that natural birth triggered UCP2 expression in the neurons located in the hippocampal region of the brain. This was diminished in the brains of mice born via C-section. Knocking out the UCP2 gene or chemically inhibiting UCP2 function interfered with the differentiation of hippocampal neurons and circuits, and impaired adult behaviors related to hippocampal functions.

“These results reveal a potentially critical role of UCP2 in the proper development of brain circuits and related behaviors,” said Horvath. “The increasing prevalence of C-sections driven by convenience rather than medical necessity may have a previously unsuspected lasting effect on brain development and function in humans as well.”

Other authors on the study included Julia Simon-Areces, Marcelo O. Dietrich, Gretchen Hermes, Luis Miguel Garcia-Segura, and Maria-Angeles Arevalo.The study was funded by the National Institutes of Health."
Source Article:
Natural birth — but not C-section — triggers brain boosting proteins


This article is somewhat annoying in that it focuses on the "stress" of vaginal birth, never mentioning how incredibly traumatic and stressful it is for a baby to be yanked out of the womb by c-section.

Extreme bias, but somewhat interesting information nonetheless.
"Yale University released a study this week that could drastically change the way that scientists, doctors, midwives, and parents view the decision to give birth vaginally or by cesarean. According to the new research, vaginal birth – but not C-section – releases a mega dose of a certain brain-boosting chemical in newborns.

The brain chemical in question is known as UCP2. This protein has been found to promote brain function, protection, and stimulates development in the hippocampus, the area of the brain that deals with short and long-term memory and spatial orientation. Without UCP2, as the study found, brain development is severely impeded.

UCP2 is a critical brain-booster for newborns that:

Promotes free-radical scavenging, protecting against brain damage
Promotes the formation of new synapses in the hippocampus
Protects against seizures, particularly when combined with breastmilk (which is high in fat and confers additional neuronal protection)
Assists in the digestion of breastmilk
May have long-lasting behavioral effects that carry on into adulthood

In the study researchers compared the brains of newborn mice that were born vaginally with those born by C-section, and found much higher amounts of UCP2 in the vaginally born mice. Mice born by C-section had some UCP2 but the levels were much lower and their production of UCP2 appeared to be impaired. Though the study was using mice, the research has profound implications for childbirth, especially concerning the practice of performing elective or non-medically necessary cesareans.

Is the Stress of Normal Birth Protective?

Why would UCP2, such a vital chemical for building stronger brains, be impacted by the type of birth one has? Interestingly, scientists know that UCP2 production is triggered by stress and that it helps cells survive under stressful conditions. Vaginal birth is a significant physiological stress for newborns, as their heads and bodies are repeatedly squeezed during pushing contractions along with the umbilical cord, creating moments of temporary oxygen deprivation (or hypoxia) in the newborn.

It is thought that newborns are built to withstand the stress of normal labor, but the mechanism is not fully understood. The UCP2 protein may provide an answer. The study authors speculated that the physical stress of the birth passage may be what triggers such a dramatic release of UCP2 during vaginal birth.

In contrast – UCP2 is released in much lower amounts during cesarean birth because it is arguably not as physically stressful for newborns. C-section babies are born relatively quickly, with little change in their oxygen levels. This relative lack of stress may make cesareans seem more attractive to some.

However, if there is truly a relationship between newborn stress and increased UCP2 levels, maybe stress is not the enemy. In fact it would seem that, in the case of childbirth, normal physiologic stress may be a crucial factor in building a stronger brain.

As tempting as it may be, we cannot yet apply these findings to people, nor can we conclude from these findings that birth by cesarean has lifetime ill effects on the brain development and behavior of adult humans. But this study does seem to suggest that there may be adverse, long-term effects of cesareans on behavior and cognition, and this topic should be more thoroughly explored in future studies.

This research ultimately sends a strong warning message to health care providers who continue to perform elective, or non-medically necessary cesareans, and presents yet another reason to seek providers who offer safe alternatives to cesarean birth and practices that lower cesarean risk.

Original Source:"
Source Article:
Vaginal Births May Provide Brain Benefits that C-Sections Do Not


"Marijuana is up to 20 times more potent than it was 40 years ago and most pregnant women who use the drug are totally unaware that it could harm their unborn child before they even know they are pregnant.

Writing in the journal Drug Testing and Analysis, American researcher's state the argument that marijuana is a harmless drug is no longer valid due to the emergence of 'high potency' marijuana and synthetic marijuana which pose a potential real threat for pregnant women.

They also express concerns that marijuana's increased popularity among teenagers and young adults could put this group at higher risk.

"The emergence of bioengineered crops and novel, medicinal marijuana strains, means that marijuana is no longer what it used to be in the 1970's and early 1980s': some new, high potency strains, including some medicinal marijuana blends such as 'Connie Chung' and many others, contain up to 20 times more THC, the psychoactive constituent of marijuana, than did 'traditional' marijuana from the 1970's and early 1980's " explains co-author Dr. Delphine Psychoyos from the Center for Genetic and Environmental Medicine at Texas A&M University. "Furthermore, with the emergence of dispensaries and Internet websites, high potency marijuana and Spice products are now readily available to the general population."

Spice products, a prominent brand of 'synthetic marijuana', or 'fake weed' mixtures, contain extremely potent THC analogues, also called 'synthetic cannabinoids', such as AM694 (found in Euphoric Blends Big Band and others) and HU210 (found in Spice Gold), both of which are 500-600 times more potent than marijuana's THC.

"The THC contained in 'high potency' marijuana and the potent THC analogues contained in Spice products and other brands of 'synthetic marijuana', are potentially harmful to embryonic development, as early as two weeks after conception. This is because these psychoactive chemicals have the ability to interfere with the first stages in the formation of the brain of the fetus; this event occurs two weeks after conception, earlier than before signs of pregnancy appear. By the time a woman realises she is pregnant and stops taking these substances it may already be too late for her unborn child. "

"Given that marijuana is the most widely used illicit drug by pregnant women worldwide -- one study estimates the rate is as high as 20 per cent -- this is a major issue."

Recent research from the past 5 years has shown that marijuana exposure during pregnancy has been associated with anencephaly, a non-sustaining life condition where a large part of the skull or brain is absent, neurobehavioral deficiencies, such as attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, learning disabilities and memory impairment in toddlers and 10 year olds, as well as neuropsychiatric conditions, including depression, aggression and anxiety, in teens.

"The problem is that many women who are pregnant, or are planning to become pregnant are totally unaware of this increased potency and the risks they pose," says co-author Dr. Delphine Psychoyos. "This is because many websites on mothering and pregnancy, and those run by pro-marijuana advocacy groups, base their discussions on data collected prior to 1997, when no detrimental affects on pregnancy had been reported; It is important to note here that prior to 1997, pregnant women were mostly exposed to low potency, 'traditional' marijuana, which was the common form of marijuana in the market in the 1970's and early 1980's."

"Marijuana has regained its popularity from the 1970s, especially among teens and young people, and has established social and cultural status as the most popular drug of abuse. Yet, like pregnant women, these young users probably have no idea of the significant increase in potency over the past four decades. "

The researchers are calling for greater awareness among pregnant women about the availability of highly potent marijuana and synthetic cannabinoids such as those found in Spice products, and the risks that they can pose to their unborn child, even before their pregnancy has been confirmed.

They highlight the need to revise U.S. government bills and legislation to take account of the development of synthetic cannabinoids, such as those found in Spice and in new psychoactive substances that are based on cannabinoid research chemicals; They also question whether there is a need to put high potency marijuana in the highest category, if marijuana is to become legalised in America, based on its medical applications.

The authors also stress that teenagers and young people need to be more aware of the health risks of high potency marijuana, of synthetic cannabinoids found in Spice and other brands, and of synthetic cannabinoid research chemicals sold as designer drugs on various non DEA-regulated websites."
Source Article:
High Potency and Synthetic Marijuana Pose Real Dangers in First Weeks of Pregnancy


"A large international study led by University of Adelaide researchers has found that women who use marijuana can more than double the risk of giving birth to a baby prematurely.

Preterm or premature birth -- at least three weeks before a baby's due date -- can result in serious and life-threatening health problems for the baby, and an increased risk of health problems in later life, such as heart disease and diabetes.

A study of more than 3000 pregnant women in Adelaide, Australia and Auckland, New Zealand has detailed the most common risk factors for preterm birth. The results have been published online July 17 in the journal PLoS ONE.

The research team, led by Professor Gus Dekker from the University of Adelaide's Robinson Institute and the Lyell McEwin Hospital, found that the greatest risks for spontaneous preterm birth included:

* Strong family history of low birth weight babies (almost six times the risk);

* Use of marijuana prior to pregnancy (more than double the risk);

* Having a mother with a history of pre-eclampsia (more than double the risk);

* Having a history of vaginal bleeds (more than double the risk);

* Having a mother with diabetes type 1 or 2 (more than double the risk).

The team also found that the greatest risk factors involved in the preterm rupture of membranes leading to birth included:

* Mild hypertension not requiring treatment (almost 10 times the risk);

* Family history of recurrent gestational diabetes (eight times the risk);

* Receiving some forms of hormonal fertility treatment (almost four times the risk);

* Having a body mass index of less than 20 (more than double the risk).

"Our study has found that the risk factors for both forms of preterm birth vary greatly, with a wide variety of health conditions and histories impacting on preterm birth," says Professor Dekker, who is the lead author of the study.

"Better understanding the risk factors involved in preterm birth moves us another step forward in potentially developing a test -- genetic or otherwise -- that will help us to predict with greater accuracy the risk of preterm birth. Our ultimate aim is to safeguard the lives of babies and their health in the longer term," he says.

This study has been funded by the Premier's Science and Research Fund (South Australian Government) and the New Enterprise Research Fund, Auckland NZ."
Source Article:
Marijuana Use Prior to Pregnancy Doubles Risk of Premature Birth

Saturday, August 18, 2012


"As you’re going over your child’s back-to-school list, there’s one thing you can cross off: vaccines.

You’ve probably seen Marcella Piper-Terry’s brilliant “NO SHOTS, NO SCHOOL … NOT TRUE!” campaign. [1] (Thank you, Marcella, for all your hard work. What a great idea!) And I, along with many others, have written about vaccine exemptions before. But at this time of year—and with the misinformation that’s out there—I believe it’s worth covering again. The bottom line is, your child does NOT have to be vaccinated to attend school.


There is no federal law mandating vaccine exemptions. They are left up to individual states. Every state has at least one kind. Some have two or even three. All 50 states have a medical exemption. All states except Mississippi and West Virginia have religious exemptions. And 18 have philosophical exemptions.

To find out which exemptions are available in your state and how you go about getting one, visit the National Vaccine Information Center website. [2] Click on your state on the map. You will find a page of links that contain specific requirements and, in most cases, forms for each type. You can also Google your state’s name and “health department” for information.

Medical Exemptions

A medical exemption has to come from a medical doctor.

I’ve told my personal story before, but I’ll tell it again for those who haven’t heard it. Early in 2009, my grandson, Jake, saw a homeopathic pediatrician who gave him a medical exemption for school. She filled in the Commonwealth of Virginia School Entrance Health Form, listing all the vaccines he had received since birth and their dates. In the Conditional Enrollment and Exemptions section, she wrote, “Jake is recovering from autism and is now a child with ADHD with residual autistic traits. Further vaccines may put him back into autism,” and signed and dated it. That fall, the school accepted it with no questions or comments. I’m pretty sure that medical exemptions cannot be revoked. At least I hope I’m right. If I sound hesitant and uncertain, it’s because my research has raised some doubts in my mind as to whether a medical exemption is the best option.

According to Barbara Loe Fisher, founder of NVIC, “… it is almost impossible to get an American doctor to write a medical exemption today because the medical conditions, which qualify for a medical contraindication have been severely narrowed by CDC and AAP so that very few medical conditions qualify as a contraindication to vaccination. Therefore, it follows that very few medical conditions officially qualify for a medical exemption to vaccination.” [3]

I don’t know which medical conditions qualify for an exemption or who oversees the exemptions, but I have heard that a medical exemption can be turned down by a state health department. With that in mind, it’s probably easier to get one of the following exemptions.

Religious Exemptions

Requirements for religious exemptions vary by state. In most states, you don’t have to belong to a particular church (or any church), but some states require a letter from a “spiritual advisor” confirming that you are sincere about your beliefs. In other states (such as Virginia), you just need to sign a form saying vaccines violate your religious beliefs.

Philosophical Exemptions

A philosophical exemption is based on a personal belief that doesn’t have to be religious. States currently accepting a philosophical exemption are Arizona, California, Colorado, Idaho, Louisiana, Maine, Michigan, Minnesota, New Mexico, North Dakota, Ohio, Oklahoma, Rhode Island, Texas, Utah, Vermont, Washington, and Wisconsin. Some of these states require the parent to sign the form at the local health department in front of a staff member.

Proof of Immunity

If you can show proof of immunity, you may be able to get an exemption. This requires submitting proof that your child has had a particular disease, that he has been vaccinated against the disease, or that his titers show immunity to the disease.

Back to my grandson. The same pediatrician who gave Jake a medical exemption offered to test his titers. He had been fully vaccinated between 1 day and 15 months, receiving 30 doses of vaccines. The results of his tests showed that he was still immune to measles, mumps, rubella, diphtheria, tetanus, and hepatitis B more than six years after his last vaccine.

My oldest daughter had a different experience. Her pediatrician told her that an insurance company wouldn’t pay for titer testing, which he said was expensive. He wasn’t willing to do it—even when she said she would pay for the tests. This is absolutely criminal on at least two counts. Titer testing should be covered by insurance. If you don’t have insurance, it should be free. After all, it’s ridiculously easy to get free vaccines. More important, the tests should be required by law after the first shot in any series. These tests could prevent many unnecessary vaccines for many children. The point I’m getting to here is, if you’re lucky enough to find a doctor who will give you a medical exemption, he would probably test your child’s titers, which would give you—and the school—proof of immunity.


Here are several states and their exemption laws. I have chosen these because they illustrate the wide range of specific requirements. Keep in mind that, in some states, legislators are being pressured to do away with different kinds of vaccine exemptions. So, the following information is subject to change at any time.


The Colorado Medical Exemption form includes options for children in child care through grade 5 and says that “The physical condition of the above named person is such that immunization would endanger life or health or is medically contraindicated due to other medical conditions.” The form must be signed by a medical doctor. [4]

South Carolina

In South Carolina, a licensed physician must submit a request in order to receive the medical exemption form. For a religious exemption, parents have to call the local health department and set up an appointment. [5]


The Virginia K–12 Religious Exemption form (which my family has used) states: “The administration of immunizing agents conflicts with the above named student’s/my religious tenets or practices.” Like most (if not all) exemptions, it also says, “I understand, that in the occurrence of an outbreak, potential epidemic or epidemic of a vaccine-preventable disease in my/my child’s school, the State Health Commissioner may order my/my child’s exclusion from school, for my/my child’s own protection, until the danger has passed.” The form has to be signed by the parent and notarized. [6]


The Montana Religious Exemption form says: “I, the undersigned, swear or affirm that immunization against diphtheria, pertussis (whooping cough), tetanus, polio, rubella, mumps and measles is contrary to my religious tenets and practices. I also understand that I am subject to the penalty for false swearing if I falsely claim a religious exemption for the above-named student [i.e. a fine of up to $500, up to 6 months in jail, or both (Sec. 45-7-202, MCA)].” A new form must be submitted each year, signed by the parent and the student (if 18 or older) and notarized. [7]


The Idaho Certificate of Immunization Exemption states that “As the parent/guardian of [student’s name], I am opposed to having my child receive the immunization(s) checked in Section 1 of this form for the following reason(s).” There is space to fill in the reason. [8]


In Texas, parents who want a philosophical exemption must sign an Affidavit Request for Exemption from Immunization for Reasons of Conscience. The form can be mailed, faxed, hand delivered, or filled in online. [9]


As you can see, the laws about exemptions vary from state to state. Some are as simple as checking a box and signing a form. Others require that you write a statement about your belief. Still others require that you or your doctor submit a request in order to receive the exemption form.

Whichever exemption you opt for, it’s vital that you learn what the laws are in your state and act quickly to do what you need to do before your child starts school. Some states are trying to take away religious and philosophical exemptions, and it’s becoming more and more difficult to get a medical exemption. The sooner you act, the better.

If your pediatrician won’t listen to your concerns and threatens to discharge your child as a patient if you refuse to vaccinate, find another doctor. You can ask friends for suggestions or Google “vaccine-friendly doctors” or “no-vax doctors” for a doctor who is open to an alternate schedule—or no schedule, if that’s your choice. Sometimes doctors in a family practice will accept unvaccinated children. Another option is to find a younger doctor. In a recent poll, about 15 percent of young doctors said they’re “starting to adopt a more individualized approach to vaccinations in direct response to the vaccine safety concerns of parents,” … “including delaying vaccinations or giving children fewer vaccines on the same day or continuing to provide medical care for those families, who decline use of one or more vaccines.” [10] It makes sense that a doctor who will accept a child who isn’t vaccinated according to the AAP schedule may also be amenable to writing a medical exemption—and/or testing your child’s titers.

If these efforts aren’t successful, talk to a lawyer who is knowledgeable about vaccine exemptions. Google “vaccine exemption lawyer,” or ask friends for suggestions. Especially in states that require personal belief statements, a lawyer can head off problems that may be difficult, if not impossible, to correct. For more information, I highly recommend that you listen to the conversation between Dr. Mayer Eisenstein and attorney Alan Phillips. [11]

I can think of two more ideas that, although they might not be a first choice, are possibilities. I personally know parents who have moved to a state with friendlier exemptions. I also know parents who end up homeschooling their children. For me, either option is preferable to letting a child have unnecessary, untested, and unsafe vaccines. Remember: We’re talking 49 doses of vaccines by age 4 to 6. And by the time a child has been through high school, we’re talking a total of approximately 70 doses. We’re talking lab-altered viruses and bacteria; aluminum; mercury; formaldehyde; phenoxyethanol; gluteraldehyde; sodium borate; sodium chloride; sodium acetate; monosodium glutamate (MSG); hydrochloric acid; hydrogen peroxide; lactose; gelatin; yeast protein; egg albumin; bovine and human serum albumin; antibiotics; and unidentified contaminants. [12]


As usual, “the other side” is working hard to make sure kids stay vaccinated.

“Studies have shown that the harder it is to obtain an exemption, the less parents use it. Some are motivated by convenience. Others see the hurdles as a sign of how seriously society regards immunizations.” [13]

The gist of this article is to make exemptions more difficult to obtain by requiring parents to be counseled by their pediatricians on “the risks of vaccination versus leaving a child unprotected.” And—get this—requiring insurance and Medicaid to cover the counseling. After all, it’s effective. “About 85 percent of parents who had withheld vaccines changed their mind after group information sessions at the Vaccine Education Center at Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia.”

Why not call a spade a spade? A “group information session” is propaganda. More of the same. If parents can have a free counseling session with their pediatrician to convince them to have their children vaccinated—free if they can’t afford them—then let’s require insurance and Medicaid to pay for titer testing (and the visit) and make it free for uninsured patients.

















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"Two three-year-old twin brothers have had their genitals amputated after a circumcision operation went horribly wrong in Khanaqin.

Khanaqin hospital media official Arian Qader said: "Unfortunately an unwanted incident occurred while circumcising the two boys. After the operation went wrong, their penises were amputated. Now they urinate using plastic tubes."

Qader said the doctor and assistant amputated the kids' genitals by mistake.

The official added: "When you circumcise a boy, there is a small tool in our hospital that looks like an iron for amputating a small part of the skin on the top of the penis."

"After the incident, both kids got gangrene, the disease of infection of the wound."

The genitals were ironed more than the normal procedure requires and this led to infection. The boys' penises were later amputated.

The kids are Arab from Baladruz. Their father has registered a lawsuit against the doctor (I.A) and assistant.

Gangrene is a serious and life-threatening condition that arises when a considerable mass of body tissue dies after an injury or infection."
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Twin Boys' Genitals Amputated After Circumcision Op Goes Wrong


Homebirth is a key to the preservation of love in families. Hospital birth protocols will ALWAYS interfere with love.
"Hello my PEOPLE peeps,

There’ve been some pretty major changes in my life since I last wrote you in June. On July 1, I gave birth to my second little angel, Indi Joon Maran Alborzi.

Indi was born in the backyard of our Pennsylvania farmhouse, and we were surrounded by my family and friends. Talk about a labor of love! There was nothing but love in the air, and I’m sure that helped Indi make her way into our arms in only four hours.

I’d been having contractions for about a week before I finally went into labor. I kept waking up in the morning thinking, “Today’s the day.”

Being nine months pregnant in the heat and humidity of Pennsylvania was getting old, so I did what the modern mom does: I went on Twitter and asked if anyone had any tips to make a baby decide to move out of Mommy Hotel.

Sure enough, another mom recommended spicy food. I didn’t hesitate: I dragged my husband and daughter to dinner at a Mexican restaurant.

It worked! The next morning I was standing on the stairs in my farmhouse chatting with Ali’s mom when my water broke. Instantly I became giggly and giddy with excitement at meeting my new baby.

Soon I was sitting in a blow-up kiddie swimming pool in my backyard with my midwives, family, and friends gathered around. My dear husband was in the pool with me, encouraging me, telling me that I was powerful, capable and beautiful.

My older daughter, Rumi Joon, was dancing around, checking on me, then running off to make me clover crowns. She even came out with a plate of cookies for my guests — always the perfect little hostess. When I was struggling, she gave me lots of kisses to help me through.

It was a beautiful day. I took in the view around me as each contraction came and went through my body. I love being outside, so the choice to give birth in the great outdoors was a natural one for me.

Being surrounded by birds, plants, and my family was much better than being in a hospital with impatient doctors and lots of beeping monitors. A home birth was the perfect choice for me — that’s why I did it again.

I understand that this birth choice isn’t for everyone, but I believe in trusting my body to do what women have been doing for thousands of years. Childbirth isn’t scary; it’s a natural and powerful wonder. I encourage all women to explore their options, and know that they have control over how they give birth.

While my daughters’ births were very different — Rumi was born in 14 hours under a jasmine vine, while Indi was born in four hours under a honeysuckle bush — each was a truly magical experience. I brought my girls out of my body and into nature, and I hope this early experience inspires them to remember their ties to the earth.

During my labor, I wore a necklace hung with the charms that the women in my life gave me at my baby shower, each also offering an intention for my birth. The charms and the women’s wishes were all so different — some wished me strength and perseverance; others wished me lightness and freedom. The love and power in my necklace reminded me that I’m never alone, even when I’m in labor.

When it was finally time for Indi to arrive, Ali caught her in the water. At first, we were pretty shocked she was a girl — I had thought I was having a boy! That moment was a beautiful reminder that we don’t know or control everything.

We were filled with love and adoration for our little girl, with her beautiful, perfectly red lips. Rumi said, “She looks like Snow White!” Indi was born with a full head of dark hair, which was funny — Rumi was bald for months as an infant.

As soon as she was born, Indi let out a triumphant scream that sounded to me like, “Hi there, I’m alive and kickin’, guys!” She was instantly alert to the world and the sunshine on her face.

No labor is easy, but the intensity of giving birth prepares you to become a great mom. Childbirth has taught me about patience, focus, and confidence in my body and its power. At the same time, it teaches you lessons in surrendering to what is natural.

I have never felt such immense joy as I did when birthing my daughters. When I held Indi and Rumi for the very first time, I knew that I already had everything I needed to be a mom to them. The intensity of childbirth provides deep wisdom to a mother as her child passes through her.

Ali and I kept Indi’s name a secret for a few days. We have always loved the name. It feels strong, independent, and full of life. The name itself means “gift,” which resonated with us because she is already such a blessing to our lives.

We chose to give her the same middle name as Rumi: Joon. Joon is a Farsi term of endearment meaning “my dear” or “my beloved.” It ties our daughters to their Persian heritage, and to each other.

In fact, Rumi is already inseparable from her little sister. She’s the best helper I could ask for. She burps Indi, sings her to sleep, kisses her and says, “Hi sweetheart, you’re my sister!”

Being a mother of two daughters is the most rewarding experience of my life. It’s definitely double the work of having one, but my love for my daughters has also doubled, if not quadrupled!

I hope they’ll grow up with a passion for making the world a better and more beautiful place. What more could a mother ask for?"
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Josie Maran’s Blog: How I Gave Birth In My Backyard